∞

2010-02-01T02:52:00.004-05:00

watch me get lost

where it is quiet, so quiet

and where I drown in the pit

of my own stomach

watch me listen

watch me watch

my fingers grow to roots that hold me back

that clutch my belly

and stretch the skin of my broken pieces

that tear my hair

and tremble at the base of my cold neck

watch me shudder

watch me fold to you

watch me turn my back

watch me feel

my fingers mold to the line of my spine

as I handcuff myself to my own humanity.

2009-12-30T11:40:00.003-05:00

as you exhale the darkness

I inhale the way you move

so you can break me in my curves

where the softest pieces of me

are left with the impressions of your bones

so learn me

touch me

know me

kiss me

hold me

want me

in all ways biological and beautiful

remembering that this my curse

and I fear that as your teeth graze my skin

my poison will fill your mouth

you want to breathe me

bite me

swallow me whole

well you are shredding my flesh

with your tongue

and I am splitting to understanding...

I will never be enough for you.

2009-12-13T20:29:00.004-05:00

without knowing, you are louder today

than you were yesterday

your lack of attention

breaks my bones

did you know you are stepping

on my toes?

sure, we can play mercy

bend back my fingers baby

and it's the way you breathe

good god, it is that you breathe..

2009-11-22T21:53:00.001-05:00

my blood escapes me in a waxy mess
to become the candles that I see by
it is a perfect kind of pain
an anger set in sanitized tubes
here is the experimentation
hit or miss in guess and check
I will be the blinded shattered horrid
when the pulsing of my cells
is lessened by your lips

so that it ceases to be a question

of the skin set loose from my teeth

and becomes a question

of the safety in my veins

I will find the answer to breath

in your quiet desperation

the silence changes the course of things

and a shoulder is bared

to break the light

it is harsh and cold as metal against flesh

like a paper cut

to the bloodied pieces of everything

I am no longer able to see straight

and waxed blood swallows and defines my experience.

2009-11-03T00:18:00.005-05:00

rounded bite marks break the lips of reason

I suppose I see the logic

in life [a break from death]

in death

[a break from life]

the edges are soft and I'm on the verge

in this padded cell of mine

today I'm imagining car wrecks

feeling glass shatter in my straight jacket

I'm on tiptoe

syringe to skin and muscle to trigger

and I find that I am an observer

noticer of the little things

participant through the looking glass

taking notes to live, to breathe, to break

you know the reality set

by the patterns in my heartbeats

the despair chewing my veins

please, for my sake hold me down

as the writhing of my cells

breeds disgusting logic

I swear that life

is just [a break from death...]

2009-10-04T21:00:00.019-04:00

you're eating at my heart tonight

with your thick hair and esoteric eyes

and your words peel me back

to pressure your lips

I swear I'll play nice

with my magic fingers on your cheeks

let me slip along your skin

and teach you the words to love me

it's all in the palms of our hands

and I wonder if our existence can breathe

in the passion of all things new

there's a softening of the flesh

it's where need creates beauty

and iron muscle melts to hope

my intensity speaks clearly

and I think that I might need you

the sharpening edges of emotion

sigh the semantics of understanding...

in this moment,

I'm here with you

and it is enough.

2009-09-30T20:32:00.007-04:00

it's the harshness of my voice

raking in spurts of song

welcome to the place where I weep

as silent screams swallow the mouthpiece of reason

I'm good at keeping the metal in my veins

and letting my own words bleed me dry

the desperation slips through my skin

can you promise me that I'm good at this?

in the harshness of my voice

I seek you out

and wish and hope

to someday hear you break my sorrow.

2009-09-22T00:05:00.015-04:00

if I tilt my head back
I can meet the sky
and drift away as my insides explode in stars
I'm sure there will be vindication
and I won't have to see myself break down
it's hard for me to be okay
and now I'm tilting my head back
and driving with my eyes closed
I'm letting myself loose
to exist in the chaos, and let it all happen
the rush of air
explains my mistakes
I knew I could breathe
and I think I'll be okay
in raindrops on bare skin
in words escaping sweetly parted lips
in love behind the teeth of everything
in paint spattered hands
in ink that flows from the heart
in laughter
in light
in life
I find myself dancing between the words
that make it all beautiful
and today,
I feel infinite ★

2009-09-08T22:37:00.005-04:00

I always thought I knew you best

but the pieces of you that fell apart at my fingertips

are now tucked neatly in your best disguise

I always thought I knew you best

when your skin was close enough to breathe

and your eyes saw me through a kaleidoscope

when elves and ents flickered softly in two dimensions

and goose bumps distracted wandering lips

when private whispers were enough

when love filled the lightest parts of us

when the future was just written word

when we were okay

just being okay together

and when you and me

you and I

spun in circles holding hands in our minds

from across a country's distance

and we were okay

just being okay together...

I suppose it's just hard

at the end of things

to be able to say that I just miss you.

I miss you so much.

and that is okay.

and I am okay.

I'm okay

I'm okay.

someday the conviction of repetition will soothe the rest, and maybe I'll believe it myself.

I don't want you anymore.

I just want to miss you.

2009-09-07T23:34:00.004-04:00

it's one of those days
where time goes slow and I'm okay...
I would have taken you to see the stars
on a night where I would be okay
but you shook my gentle fingers
from your lips
and shackled my wrists to my mouth
I would have held your head
and rubbed your sore temples
but you looked in my eyes
and turned flesh to logic
letting blue burn like fire in your reason
I would have taken your hand in mine
and drank the cold from your bones

leaving scratches in your muscles

and decision in your pores
with my skin split and my senses reeling
you kissed me so fast that my head spun
and I couldn't make sense
of the words you etched into my brain
like a crooked coat hanger
your tongue destroyed my skin
and I'm left shredded softly
on the boundaries of what is real
you shook me awake
with your whispering words and esoteric stare
and stepped away to pressure the lines
time is slow, and I'm okay
because you pushed the button
that brought me to life
and the stitches are leaving me
in the hopes that your stolid arms
will return to my spine-less self
I promise that I am okay today

I promise that I am okay today
but I would have taken you to see the stars...

2009-08-21T00:38:00.004-04:00

let's leave it be
to let the sun speak the longest words
and the cold creep forward on spindle legs
with marbled eyes
and an absent tongue
I've tried to explain it
though I feel stripped of reasoning,
naked in the hands of humanity
I was enough once
at the innocence of beginnings
with marbled eyes
and shaking hands
I gauge your distance
and fall apart
like the rest of everything
again you fumble harshly with my slippery heart
blindly, as it were.

2009-08-09T18:42:00.004-04:00

it's like arts and crafts
with broken glass
and metal shards of words
I'm sorry that I am weak
my heart, my worth
colors splayed in shredded paper
so use the canvas
that is my skin
as if I make more sense
with fingernails made of cotton
eyes of yarn
heart of wax
courtesy of your choice
I'm sorry that I am weak
and that I find the desperation
in the shaking hands of humanity
and that I point out the noises
that keep me awake at night
I'm sorry that I am weak
that I am scared
that I am young
I'm sorry that I am weak
that I live for a minute
and die to breathe your skin
I'm sorry that I am weak
I'm sorry that I am weak
that I want
that I breathe
that I love
that I tremble and blend
with the rest of everyone
and that we are never enough...
I am never enough
I am sorry
I am sorry
I am sorry that I am weak.

2009-07-30T01:40:00.003-04:00

this is the reason
and here is why we fall apart
from the lies
in the heartbeats in our lips
we stem to reason
in the logic of a minute
hide me
please hide me
when you're digging for the razor
buried in the muscle of your heart
just break me down
and split me open
my blood holds all the answers
and I know we're okay
we're always okay.

2009-07-27T23:58:00.002-04:00

the limit shatters me
and the cold collapses these lungs
I'll just hold your hand
it's all I have...
measuring tape replaces my bones
to gauge the numbers
that make us old and tall and fat
bottle after bottle
smile after song
and we're learning learning
to love just love
on the wings of what is simple
here's what we know
here's what we know
I'm holding your hand
and it's all I have
all I have.

2009-07-21T02:16:00.003-04:00

we are midnight star-gazers
dressed in the clothes
of those less broken
our bodies wet with heavy rain
that breathes our names
in the silenced darkness
can we paint all these pictures
and smooth the canvas over our eyes and mouths
it's just a memory
it's just a memory
and I breathe it breathe it
breathe the canvas
to stretch it out
taught, over my face
until I just can't
breathe it breathe it
breathe the canvas anymore
breathe it breathe it
breathe the canvas anymore
you've always been the blinking red light
fading slowly in my rearview mirror
my option for reverse is gone
and all I've got is drive...
where the fuck are you?
my lonely headlights lead me on
my lonely headlights lead me on
and I just can't breathe it breathe it
breathe the canvas anymore.

2009-06-30T20:57:00.004-04:00

I'm under a purple sky again
bruising, just bruising to breathe
as paper cuts my tongue
I can't escape your easy smile
a mouth full of words
determines the blue of my eyes
passion drowning my reason
and singeing the lining of my brain
I can't escape your easy smile
I can't escape your easy smile
or the simplicity of floating on
I'm bound heavy to this earth
while you live free in the sky
I'm not okay
I'm never okay
it's all just broken road
under my purple sky
under my purple sky.

2009-06-28T14:39:00.000-04:00

it's just the touch of a finger
tracing over softly shaped lips
brushing thick hair from clouded eyes
slipping from ankle to thigh
and capturing seconds in sighs
we breathe easy in the mellow
as metal pressures skin
on the forehead of the new
I'm an experience waiting
to be born into your patient hands
frazzled and lonely
in the wake of a broken love
I am the result of my self-destruction
of Polaroids and darkened rooms
of too much sleep and stars in my eyes
my demise, the passion that burns me
through everything I do
intensity breathes my name
and sends me tripping lightly
into your gentle embrace
"Hello, we are alive and lovely"
take me in, just take me in
save me from these shattered prophecies
and sweep me slowly to higher ground
to laugh and play
and breathe and dream...
the common denominator
3+4 and 99
to break us down
and piece us together
I'm home and I'm okay
dancing slowly through the holes in your ears
if only to be
alive and lovely with you.

2009-06-25T02:20:00.006-04:00

be the breath I can't hold in
sit in the palm of my hand
and sleep on the skin of broken hearts
it's just our sickened prophecy
to listen to it all move on
and talk to daisies dying slowly
as if we would understand
as their petals leave them naked
it's just our sickened prophecy
and we can't see why they write it so
with all our electronic books
and voices wired to our brains
to tell us the things we already knew
and read us stories we memorized long ago
it never mattered more than now
but it's our sickened prophecy
and we're running, running
heavy on the strings that lift us at our elbows
we were never enough
it's just our sickened prophecy...

I realized that I make almost no sense.

2009-06-17T00:23:00.004-04:00

it's the poetry
and the lies, the lies
in all the colors of beauty
and written word
heavy in chalk on my hands
the broken, the broken
you and I
and written word
heavy in ink on my hands
the blackened truth
hides sweetly in pieces of broken silence
spread like love
to the edges of us
I always tried to find you there
in the sharpness of your closed lips
it's all in written word
and still, I seek you, seek you out
it's all in shattered mornings
and fractured nights
when the quiet can only grace my ears
and break my heart
it's always been in written word
where I follow you to know you
and pull like needles
the love from your skin
always written word
only written word
and the heaviness you leave in my heart.

2009-06-11T18:01:00.005-04:00

these are the days
that break me down
the ones that leave me
choking on love
when will you learn?
suffering creates meaning
and the shit that pulls us down
makes us the most interesting
I had the beading pliers
that I used to bash it in
my best friend, the hourglass
fixing my heart
with grains of sand
can time take me on?
I broke it
I broke it

I broke it

I broke it

when will you learn?

2009-06-10T00:53:00.002-04:00

this is what my brain is supposed to be
a broken, mushy mess
full of our excuses
and words skirting around truth
because I'm too afraid
to say what I really mean
that I'm bitter
angry
jealous
sad
that I miss you
and that, despite the rest,
that never changed
secretly, I'll always love you.

2009-06-02T02:37:00.002-04:00

it's more and more
that I hang upside down
on the limbs of that tree
trying to catch raindrops
in my backwards eyes
more and more
that I'm snorting incense ash
from the wings of a dead butterfly
more and more
that I inhale ink
to spit out words
and breathe the dust
of ghostly emotions
more and more
it's you, just you
that is keeping me alive
but more and more
I just want to be dancing
alone in the rain.

2009-05-30T02:33:00.002-04:00

petalled words
swallow my tongue
I'm always softest
when talking to you
as I'm dotted harshly
with the rarest raindrops
and chills roll slowly
under my skin
to strip it down
and leave it all
to the grey skies
and the haunting mornings
if only to hear
you say my name again...
in a conversation
pulled heavily
from the deepest heart
it's all just talk
just talk
just talk
so we can waste the day
with rounded words
to remember before
and love with the unspoken.

2009-05-24T19:56:00.003-04:00

I wanted wanted wanted
you
and now I'm
starting starting starting
over
sangria in a plastic cup
and wine soaked fruit
on a summer day
are breathing life
back into my cheeks
and arranging tears
like numbers on my skin
you cracked the code once
and I wish
and want
for you to be the one
to someday break my paralysis
despite how
irrational and illogical
that dream may now be.

2009-05-18T22:14:00.003-04:00

as it all rests sedentary
the leak in it all lets me go
an alice in wonderland tattoo
defines my grace
and breaks my skin
just when I'd been hoping again
choose me, choose me
just when I wanted again
choose me, choose me
you chose, you chose
and it wasn't me...
so kill me in the end
the pages are yellowed anyway.

2009-05-18T01:39:00.003-04:00

how are you today?
I've missed you a lot...
but I'm not the same
and neither are you
there are yellow flowers in my hair
and I'm a lion in the sun
spread bare in the warm
a textbook summer,
perfect and blue
eats at my eyes
and sears my skin
I'm stuck without you
once again
and even the night
can't break it down
enough for me to understand
I know how I feel
and I know that it doesn't make
a damn bit of difference.

2009-05-16T18:25:00.004-04:00

I'm making sense
of bottle caps
and letters laid
flat on the pavement
even though
it's all so heavy
cold water droplets
lifted the weight
pushing gentle fingers
in the middle of my skin
I'm being split open
from button to zipper
and crease to fingertip
the sun
broke down the leaves
and left me naked
laid out
molded to the ground
the curls streaming
from my head
become the roots
that hold me still
and hide me in the light...
I thought I could
make sense of all of this
as if a name
could move your breath
to stop and wait
and throw it away
to turn a page
and ignore the last number
I wouldn't want me either...
not now.

2009-05-15T00:40:00.002-04:00

I'm finding more and more that all I want is to run off into the woods and be a fairy in the moss and the mushrooms.
dreams are lovely...

2009-05-14T00:30:00.003-04:00

I'm in love
with the smallest parts of you
and they are the ones
that ruin me again
and again...
I hope that someday
fate will find me worthy enough
to help me let go
of you.

2009-05-14T00:28:00.003-04:00

the circulation
from stem to petal
is lost in translation
from music to love
where upon waking
it's all been drained away
and the window of before
is clouded thoroughly with after
heavy beats may confuse the ears
just as ink
may confuse the heart.

2009-05-14T00:27:00.000-04:00

It can't have just been summer love
an affliction brought on
by changing temperatures
and the longest friendship
a purely seasonal love
come once with the warmth
and gone again with the leaves
I always thought we meant something
but what made us
so much more special
than all the others?

2009-05-14T00:24:00.001-04:00

I've always wanted the softness
the fleshiest parts of us
in my dreams my teeth are sharp
and your blood
is sweeter than your mouth
I always knew how to draw first
how to hurt you more
how to rip the skin from your lips
and spill
your warmth over my teeth
there are nerves in the worst
parts of me
and bone where there should be
heart
I always knew how to break you
but I always went first.

2009-05-12T01:00:00.000-04:00

I can't breathe
I won't breathe
as the dark breaks down the day
there's more of the sun
than we wanted there to be
and its pieces burn my throat
I've always swallowed them to save you
and I'll always choke on the light
to bring you back
god dammit
fuck your paradox.

2009-05-11T21:57:00.000-04:00

I drew you a picture
like Harold
with his purple crayon
I drew it all
to stay in the lines
and color the spaces
between my bones
my crayon is the source of all
this nonsense
and causes all the confusion
in the cracks in your teeth
turns out I was never okay
and I was wrong...
welcome to reality
I always knew you'd be there.

2009-05-11T21:44:00.000-04:00

can I write the rest
to break us down
does it get any simper from here?
I tried to write you a poem in the sky
but the sun only stole my words
and blinded me with sentiment
does it get any simpler from here?
should I treat love like a wound..?
cells and skin, they all grow back
and pigment floods the healed
but only until the freshest skin
in pierced again...
will it ever just be simple?

2009-05-11T21:41:00.000-04:00

it's the good times
and like paper cuts they sting
the sun left marks
where it wrapped itself around me
where's the road back to delusion?
the arrows point to a cloudless day
and the open arms of the classic sun
the asphalt burns my feet
I always hated shoes and sun.

2009-05-11T21:38:00.000-04:00

perhaps it takes the morning
to learn the night
did you notice the petals?
they fell for you
and they whisper words of love
through the pores of your inside-out skin
there are weeds on your fingertips
and trees in your eyes
maybe that's why we make no sense...
have we lost ourselves in the soil
of thousands of miles?
grown sedentary and empty-headed
just to let our roots bleed?
I never thought that this is how it would be
but tree leaves ceased to grace my heavy curls
oh, broken truth...
you always knew me best.

2009-05-11T21:37:00.000-04:00

I unintentionally
dyed your paper napkin
and drank your sparkle water
will I glow in the sun
with the glory of my sins?
as your tie dyed napkin
and empty bottle scream my name
the leak in it all flows faster
goodbye, sunshine
perhaps I'll miss you tonight.

2009-05-11T21:35:00.000-04:00

these numbers glow
but can't you tell
that they're after us?
was it ever more of a conspiracy
than in this delicate moment?
I'll close my eyes to block them out
and hide myself
in sleep just sleep
to dance with words
and swim in ink
to be all that I've ever known
and lose the rest to the sadistic.

2009-05-11T21:33:00.001-04:00

read me please
over and over
spill my ink
on your upturned palms
to take me in
and breathe me deep
read me please
over and over
so you never tire
of the repetition
and you find new beauty
in old words
read me please
so when all my pages are gone
you can whisper my story
between parted lips
on the sweetest breath
and I'll learn myself
the way you've always
known me.

doesn't make and senseeeeee

2009-05-11T21:30:00.000-04:00

when I stab myself
on a dead cactus
it still
really
hurts.
especially in the rain
where it sears
and my skin screams
and everything makes much less sense
than before
sadistic bastards...
they write it all
to break us down
but I've always just been passing the time
it all makes so little sense
so little sense...
it's just sickness
sickness

2009-05-11T21:27:00.000-04:00

I find myself
set straight with puzzle pieces
and staring at glass slivers
challenging them to let it all go
as another day passes
I blink my eyes on colored cardboard
and breathe and reach
to pull you closer
and finish this puzzle
just to be whole
each day you slip
further from my grasp
and as I choke out your name
I watch you glance away...
I'd love to let you go
but each day without you
leaves me as undone
and broken
as the one before.

2009-05-11T21:24:00.000-04:00

you always find me
late at night
when the sun ceases to chase us
and the kindest smiles
finally fade to frowns
the walls stop closing in
and I can taste your words
if only in the blanket of the dark
it's the light,
the light
and the dreams chased out by it
until I fill my mouth
with tumescent screams
to flip the pages and change the story
until I'm in my head,
and lost only in your eyes.

2009-05-11T21:22:00.000-04:00

I always loved to let you go
to watch you walk away
again
and again
and the fireflies
they danced on my tongue
as their broken wings rode down my cheeks
wetting my skin
with the dust of their light
the space gained from your absence
filled once with shallow hope...
the dead cacti, they stare me down
only they know the truth of my mutterings
I always hated circles.
at least in squares
there is somewhere to hide.

2009-05-11T21:19:00.000-04:00

it's the lead lines
and the paper planes
weighing me down
and setting me free
I was never here
and I'm not real anymore
I'm just waiting
waiting under paper clips
and black lights
it all quivers and melts
and my paper plane burns
I watch it all
to wait it out
and know you again
oh, the sadistic semantics...
but we were never funny people, were we?

2009-05-11T21:12:00.000-04:00

can we talk about broken resolve
as smoke alarms scream heavy
every moment is as unreal as the last
and each has left me
with zero motivation
with a heavy head
and a lead-filled throat
I am nothing more
than acid in my stomach
dried leaves in smoking glass
oh, the pretty lights
they break me down
so you can know the feel of my naked skin
as tea bubbles confuse the tongue
I'm gently lost in purple ink
the pages of my journal,
encore!
oh, talking mice and knob-less doors
you were always my best friends
the dish and the spoon, you and I
and indeed, everyone we know.

2009-05-10T21:10:00.000-04:00

I rest in pages of tea and quiet
where blankets are soft and nothing is wrong
the lowest music
creasing my ears
memories of rain
flickering behind my eyelids
have you always been my friend?
I'm sick, so sick
in the middle of all the good
I'm sick, so sick
so sick
so sick
can the rain be like closure?
to break me down and hold me still...
just give me a second, friend
to dance under your cold fingers
and learn to let it all go.

2009-05-10T21:08:00.000-04:00

I'll scream, just scream
and hide away in heavy curls
"no matter what happens
I'll always miss you"
but it's always too much
and we were those flaws
perfections that the world found disturbing
the rest of ever
won't be my friend
as memories of you
slow and bleed to blackened nothing.

2009-05-10T21:06:00.000-04:00

you were always enough
but now balance is left to stop signs
and the songs are buzzing in my ears
can you hear the clicking in my throat?
for I've swallowed the rose petals
that I hung from your walls
where there's a flash
a moment dies in my hands
and I know none of this
will ever be the same
but I'm sick of living life through a lens
and the sun is clouding my vision again
welcome to my wonderland...
I always loved you.

2009-05-07T21:03:00.000-04:00

it's an interesting feeling
to come back from the numb
like swimming in pudding
or like petals between my toes
but my bare feet are in flower
and my cold fingers are on your neck
as if it's warmer in black and white...
so close your paper cuts
and open your heart
where laid bare,
I'd press a finger to your lips
and quiet you with darkened eyes
to straighten your spine
and breathe your skin
I'd keep the moon to swallow the ocean
and follow the light in your words.

2009-05-06T21:00:00.000-04:00

It's in peppermint chap-stick
and biting cold
the brightest colors
and the shrillest noise
the softest daisy
kissing my palm
and the pollen
clinging to my eyelashes
a toothless grin
the thinnest cheek
the reddest blood
and the sting of pain
weight and heat
fear and you
tripping me out of pattern
and pressing your mouth
to my bruises
with words that ease
and eyes that split me sweetly
I've always been yours
in the breath of a distance's lie
and in the patterns of tears on my skin
there is you.

2009-04-30T20:52:00.004-04:00

In the same exact spot
it's warm
and I know I'm holding the pen
the impetus for so much
and victim to all else
playing willing puppet
on the strings of life
watching pennies slip through wooden toes
and becoming a Pinocchio of sorts,
my reality is held in slivered hands
letting lies slip by
like water from my lips
I am foggy pored with them
and they thicken in my system
I'm not sure what I should be seeing anymore
and my eyes are only blue glass
as the light of my lies shatters me
my tongue grows swollen
and I am filled with ash.

2009-04-30T20:49:00.004-04:00

It's not about breathing
and it never was
gasping sighs and gentle intakes
I breathe because of what you were for me
the most purple moisture, you
resting beneath my skin
to keep me and to save me
letting blood click slowly by
I never once forgot your voice
or the permanent apologies on your tongue
you were what you were
and I'm empty where you existed
but alive because you did.

2009-04-30T20:45:00.004-04:00

It all holds me steady
printed words our best friends
hand carved and gently swelled
having changed so much
under the pulse of time
under my palms,
your stone is soft
and I let you fall away
if only to break your grace
and keep you mine.

2009-04-30T20:33:00.004-04:00

It is what it is
perfectly aligned and alphabetized
when the chapped skin lies beneath
and the plastic is clear
but I am luminescent coral
nothing more than the illusion
in your story
and the hole forever
swallowing your veins
bruising you always until
you escape the memory
of my poisonous skin.

2009-04-30T20:31:00.004-04:00

keep me broken and slow me down
split my petals and dull my color
life means nothing without suffering
and I've meant nothing without you
I'm a pessimistic soldier
McCarthy's fire on hills of empty
a beast of disgusting proportions
reduced to a painted smile
on the thinnest tin face
I'm crawling like wax on the carpet
slowing
slowing
and drying to plastic unmoving
meaning and knowing nothing
but the feel of broken tin.

2009-04-30T20:30:00.002-04:00

It's all gone blurry
and in the middle I can't see straight
with bubble-gum lips,
perhaps the means aren't justified at all
and the end is only shards of glass.

2009-04-30T20:26:00.001-04:00

emotion is a scattered thing
burning my throat in so many pieces
and stretching my stitches
until I am rounded
-purple sphered
emotion biting in the blank
I'm smoky and contained
set loose from a child's mouth
a soap bubble swayed by breath
I'm flighty and tense
and cornered
I burst.

A/N:
good god I have a lot to catch up on.

...

2009-04-30T20:20:00.003-04:00

I think I may be back.

Doesn't mean much...I think I've just missed it.

Whatever I post, don't take it to heart. If I wrote it, it's because it was in MY heart and I needed it out. I can't help how it sounds or whether it's good or bad, or if it's offensive.

I just need an outlet...again...or I'll go crazy.

-H.

--?

2009-04-26T00:38:00.003-04:00

Perhaps I'm back.
I have not yet decided...

It's not as though anyone checks this anymore, but I think I need to say it out loud. Or type it. Either way.

I'm not sure that returning will serve any purpose whatsoever.

I'll give it a week.

-H.

Regarding the deletion of all my poetry..

2008-12-25T23:44:00.002-05:00

I will not be posting here anymore. If you want to know why, contact me here or elsewhere, and I'll talk to you personally. I'll stay on blogger to read your work and comment, but I will no longer be posting any poetry whatsoever.

Thank you for reading any of it that you did...those of you that..did. I appreciate it.

Always,
H.